Monday, May 30, 2011

HELLO to the next Chapter of my life!

There comes a point in your life when you say  I JUST DONT GIVE A FUCK Let go and live life to the fullest. No regrets just live life and experience everything you didnt when you didnt have the chance before. You think you wont? Well, i guarantee at some point in your life, you will. I didnt think i would, i reached that point and said those very words and had the time of my life. Until something snaps you back into reality. One heart wrenching moment when you realize, what the fuck am i doing?  Have i lost control of myself? And am i living a life that is going slowly in a downward spiral? Am i really all alone in this big big world? And suddenly i felt like everything was caving in. I have loved ones that need me and to be there for them. I need to gain much more respect for myself and LOVE ME. I lost myself for a moment but now i am focusing on who i am and what i want. I am riding solo these days but thankful for who i have in my life. And i especially need to be head strong for my girls. They are my life. I need to be mentally there for them. I want them to see me as a strong, loving, respectful, comforting person, mother, someone who they can always come to and talk to with open arms. I realize i can live life to the fullest but can do and see it on a different level. A respectable level. I was stuffing pain & heartache. Trying to gain some kind of love and kindness from the outside world. But all and all there is no love out there. None at all. It is very cold and selfish. You reach that point when you say IM DONE Its a close to one chapter and the beginning of the next with a whole new outlook.

Sunday, May 22, 2011

The day came & went and no reports of anything happening due to what that man calls the ...Rapture. Just proves that god only knows the day and the time that Armageddon will start. No man does. Enjoy your day peoples :) As for me i can smell my brewed coffee and am gonna enjoy it while sitting in my bed while feeling the cool breeze come threw my window.

Enjoy!

Saturday, May 21, 2011

In the news today

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The sun sets over the horizon near Changchun in northeastern China's Jilin province. Across the globe, followers of a California preacher's long-publicized message that Judgment Day would arrive Saturday turned to the Bible, the book they believe predicts Earth's destruction on May 21.
OAKLAND, Calif. -- Some shut themselves inside to pray for mercy as they waited for the world's end

Others met for tearful last lunches with their children, and prepared to leave behind homes and pets as they were swept up to heaven. 

And across the globe, followers of a California preacher's long-publicized message that Judgment Day would arrive Saturday turned to the Bible, the book they believe predicts the beginning of Earth's destruction on May 21. 

The doomsday message has been sent far and wide via broadcasts and web sites by Harold Camping, an 89-year-old retired civil engineer who has built a multi-million-dollar nonprofit ministry based on his apocalyptic prediction. 

After spending months traveling the country to put up Judgment Day billboards and hand out Bible tracts, Camping follower Michael Garcia planned to spend Friday evening with his family at home in Alameda, near the Christian media empire's Oakland headquarters. 

They believe it will likely start as it becomes 6 p.m. in the world's various time zones. 

"We know the end will begin in New Zealand and will follow the sun and roll on from there," said Garcia, a 39-year-old father of six. "That's why God raised up all the technology and the satellites so everyone can see it happen at the same time." 

The Internet was alive with reaction in the hours past 6 p.m. Saturday in New Zealand. 

"Harold Camping's 21st May Doomsday prediction fails; No earthquake in New Zealand," read one posting on Twitter. 

"If this whole end-of-the-world thingy is still going on ... it's already past 6.00 in New Zealand and the world hasn't ended," said another. 

Camping's radio stations, TV channels, satellite broadcasts and website are controlled from a humble building on the road to the Oakland International Airport, sandwiched between an auto shop and a palm reader. Family Radio International's message has been broadcast in 61 languages. 

Camping, however, will be awaiting Jesus Christ's return for the second time. He said his earlier apocalyptic prediction in 1994 didn't come true because of a mathematical error. 

"I'm not embarrassed about it. It was just the fact that it was premature," he told The Associated Press last month. But this time, he said, "there is...no possibility that it will not happen." 

Skeptics are planning Rapture-themed parties to celebrate what hosts expect will be the failure of the world to come to an end. 

Bars and restaurants from Melbourne, Australia to the Florida Keys advertised bashes. 

In Oakland, atheists planned a gathering at a local Masonic temple to include group discussions on "The Great Success of Past Apocalypses," followed by dinner and music. 

Camping and his followers believe the beginning of the end will come on May 21, exactly 7,000 years since the flood in the biblical story of Noah's Ark. 

Some 200 million people will be saved, Camping preaches, and those left behind will die in earthquakes, plagues, and other calamities until Earth is consumed by a fireball on October 21. 

In the Philippines, a big billboard of Family Radio ministry in Manila warned of Judgment Day. Earlier this month, group members there distributed leaflets to motorists and carried placards warning of the end of the world. 

Christian leaders from across the spectrum have widely dismissed the prophecy, but one local church is concerned that Camping's followers could slip into a deep depression come Sunday. 

Pastor Jacob Denys of Milpitas-based Calvary Bible Church plans to wait outside the nonprofit's headquarters on Saturday afternoon, hoping to counsel believers who may be disillusioned if the Rapture does not occur. 

"The cold, hard reality is going to hit them that they did this, and it was false and they basically emptied out everything to follow a false teacher," he said. "We're not all about doom and gloom. Our message is a message of salvation and of hope." 

On Friday afternoon, a small group of eccentrics, gawkers and media opportunists convened outside Family Radio's closed office building. A sign posted on the front door said "SORRY WE MISSED YOU!" 

As May 21 drew nearer, followers say donations grew, allowing Family Radio to spend millions of dollars on more than 5,000 billboards and 20 RVs plastered with the doomsday message. In 2009, the nonprofit reported in IRS filings that it received $18.3 million in donations, and had assets of more than $104 million, including $34 million in stocks or other publicly traded securities. 

Marie Exley, who helped put up apocalypse-themed billboards in Israel, Jordan, Lebanon and Iraq, said the money helped the nonprofit save as many souls as possible. She said she and her husband, mother and brother planned to stay glued to the television Friday night in Bozeman, Montana for news of an earthquake in New Zealand. 

Camping recommended this week that followers surround themselves by their loved ones and not meet publicly, Exley said. 

"It's an emotional time and we're kind of nervous and scared about how things will pan out as to who will be here and who will go to heaven," she said. "I'll probably be scared in the fog of it, and crying, because we don't know who is saved and who is not." 

Some people wanted to make sure their pets receive good treatment, no matter what happens. 

Sharon Moss, who founded AfterTheRapturePetCare.com to provide post-apocalypse animal care, said a new wave of customers has paid $10 to sign up in the last few weeks. 

"A lot of people have said you should be out there saving souls not saving pets but my heart says 'why can't you do both?'" said Moss, who identifies herself as Protestant.

– The Associated Press

Tuesday, May 17, 2011

Reer Reer




Two peas in a pod. :) We met eachother when we were in the 4th grade. Shes my PIC my WIFEY my BFF my SISTER from another mother. We know eachothers thoughts before we speak and sense eachothers sorrows and happiness before we even call eachother. We have code words like REER REER and others ;) We even order the same Value Menu at Mc D's...funny story... after not seeing eachother for awhile we decided to meet up and as we ordered, her at one counter and i at the other, we paid for our food. And as we were waiting we asked eachother what did you order? We both said and then we couldnt stop laughing. We laughed so hard, i guess it was 'a moment' LOL Is that wierd?  We were called Sharannon in grade school. And we used to always hang out at eachothers houses after school doing cheers in our front yards or just hanging out as us kids do. There was a time for a few years after High School that we lost touch when i moved to Madera from Los Banos but i found her little ass hahaha on Myspace threw a random person ive never met before. I got on there one night cause i had been wondering about her & messaged a girl named Monica. I said, i dont know if you know her but i noticed we went to the same High School back then and graduated the same year and wondered if she new of Shannon? And Monica said, yes! I see her everyday when i pick up my child from school! I said OMG can you please let her know i have been thinking of her and want to get in touch with her? She gave shannon the message that day, and shannon made a Myspace and we been in touch once again! =) We talk to eachother every morning atleast for a hour as she drinks her coffee & i drink my tea. I love her to death! And she has never left my side & mine hers threw the good times and bad. I heart her!!!! My BFF!!

BFF's Random conversation LMAO

Shannon: My god sharon...the tanning guy has on a tight white body shak tank top on...8-P ....my heart skipped like 2 beats...he is so fucking yummy...his arms are AHHHH

Me: LOLOL eye candy ;) take a pic!

Shannon: I couldnt :( to many guys were in there...but O M G..his wife is lucky

Me: LOL

Shannon: I just wanna touch his arms once

Me: Accidentally stumble and he will brace your fall ;)

Shannon: Not a bad idea! I will have to try that next time

Me: LOL

Prince





I have been wanting to see Prince since i was a little kid! Since Purple Rain came out. LOL I had his poster and everything. Now i get the priveledge of going to see him in concert!!! Yee!!! My sis surprised me with a ticket this past Sat! I was so excited i couldnt sit still for a hour. Thank you sis for getting our tickets!!! That was a awesome surprise. I guess it was a sign when i downloaded one of his ringtones to my cell phone only a week ago hee hee I made my own playlist and i hope he sings every one of these.....fingers crossed :) :)





  • 1999
  • Lets go Crazy
  • Little Red Corvette
  • 7
  • Sign O the Temples
  • Alphabet St.
  • Pop Life
  • Diamonds & Pearls
  • I wanna be your Lover
  • Erotic City
  • The Beautiful Ones
  • Rasberry Beret
  • Kiss
  • Cream
  • Purple Rain


I Cant wait....Happy Happy Joy Joy!!! Sooo happy to share this moment with my sis & my brother in-law =)

Monday, May 16, 2011

Lame

Blogging from the bath is fabulous. Don't mind me. A glass of wine is and the sound of water is all i need at this moment. Nothing more. My days of the past few years have been filled with disappointments here and there. The only positive things in my life are my loved ones. The people on the outside suck. They proved it. I open myself up and what do I get is failure. Life is at highs, sometimes then lows. Why does life have so many lows? I should be settled and be fulfilled at this age right? No no 30 and fabulous. I enjoy my time to all myself but I do honestly miss the holding hands and sweetness of affection. It will all happen again. Yes I do have alot of healing to do but, it's been 3 years people. I desire the friendship and love everyone else has. And yes I enjoy being alone to cause I don't like to answer to anyone, in other words being independent. Just when I thought just maby, it's not...once again at a loss for words.

'the day she got broke up with a post-it'

Geeeezzz....

No class at all.

Friday, May 13, 2011

When it's most important

You may be known for your social charm, and this usually works in your favor. However, you must exercise self-restraint now or your exuberant style might offend someone important. But rather than withdrawling completely, try toning down your enthusiasm just a touch. Keep in mind that self-discipline doesn't mean you have to remain silent; it's about saying the right thing succinctly. It's crucial to know how much to say and when to stop talking.
Is wondering how one of my blogs is missing??? Strange....i even had a comment on it. Just to let my followers know once i post a blog i dont delete. Sorry about that! This is no bueno!!! :-/

Sun Shiney Day...

My day started off  happy :)

Did yours?

Wednesday, May 11, 2011

Its funny how something could happen in your life, and it can be the ultimate eye~opener. No joke. It can happen. My life feels calm at the moment. And thats the way i wanna keep it.

Wednesday, May 4, 2011

From one day to the next

Im so irritated with everything right now. I hate people who talk big and mighty, when really they should be looking at themeselves. Its funny how people choose to be hush hush and quiet when theyve been found in the wrong but pass judgement on others when there life is shitty as ever. Im just in a ugly mood and somethings gotta change. And all in all im the only one that can make any changes. I may not make much sense but, i dont owe anyone a exclamation....what-so-ever.

Tuesday, May 3, 2011

Giddy & smiling
Its a beautiful day.
Life can be sweet.

I thought all desires of happiness
were gone.
But, it still does exist.