I've never felt this way in my life. Alone, and empty inside. My bones & stomach hurt. I fill like a zombie just living and watching everyone's else's life go by. The feeling hurts so deep. Why am I even here? I love my family. My girls are what helps me get threw the day. I love them so much, my heart hurts. I want them to be happy and know I've done so much for them. I wanted to have 2 children so they can always have each other. And I'm happy they do. I want them to know that the choices I've made are the choices what I thought were for the best. And to always know I love them always in my heart and there's. There's so many people that love them and they have there whole life ahead of them. A lot of bumps in the road but they will be just fine. I feel like I'm struggling to make ends meet. This is so tough being a single mom, working after 8 years. Having to start at the bottom again. Back in 02 I was making 12. A hour & bringing in 80 bucks in tips every night. I'm trying with all my power to achieve that again. I'm thinking of moving. A start over, better school for the girls. Maby a school where the kids can be in smaller class rooms and get the education they need for a bright comfortable future. Set goals and be independent women. They deserve that chance. And as a mother I my have to make that choice.

Close your eyes
Clear your heart
Let it go