Classic hahaa

Chistmas 2017

Just me and my corrina on this Christmas Eve. Its truly a silent night. My poor girl even fell asleep. Shes been battling a fever since early morning. We've been a couple of couch potatoes and are now on our 8th movie. I wonder what my family is doing. They are most likely playing a few games, sipping on some fine wine, and opening a few gifts. Laughing, smiling, maby even getting tipsy. 

2 Years ago we celebrated Christmas at my aunt valeries just days after the death of my father. I got so drunk that night. I swore i would never get that drunk ever again in my life. I wished and hoped for my dad and even thought of near death of myself out of pure selfishness. I was drunk and in and out of sleep. I was sick in the head and missed my dad. My mother and uncle took care of me. My mom was pissed at me for getting so drunk. I promised i would never get like that again. And i never have. I pace myself. I dont ever go over board like that one night. 

 I poured myself a glass of Rossi this past friday after work. And cheered to the weekend. Im so ever greatful for this 3 day weekend. I needed it. The commute to work has been getting to me. And the work overload on my plate has been getting to me also. Anyways, cheers to the weekend. Saturday i caught up on sleep and watched movies with corrina. My friend stopped by and spent a few hours with me. Sipped on wine and chatted some. I gave him his christmas present. He had that smile on his face that gets me every time. 

Today, i got up and started baking oatmeal cookies and made rice krispy treats for moms. Im sure everyone enjoyed them tonight. Mom sent me a picture of the kids eating one before dinner hahaa. Im near half threw my bottle of Rossi so yummy. Pacing myself. Corrina and i ordered mountain mikes for dinner. Corrina ate just a little bit for she is still not feeling well. She passed on the chicken broth i made her and took a slice of pizza. I dont blame her. 

I'm really missing him and my family tonight. I wish we can all be under the same roof right about now. I wonder what they are all doing at this very moment.

Love is spending the rest of your life with someone you want to kill and not doing it because you'd miss them.

xox

To the person who drives me out of my fucking mind...

You drive me wild. Insane.

Your always on my mind.

It never gets old.

Me & You.

I hate you.

I fucking love your mind.

Your eyes. Your skin make me putty.

You get my insanity.

I love your thoughts. 

It never gets old.

I hate you.

I fucking love you. 

Dont ever stop loving.

Forever yours....kisses.

Hooked

When the little things are what truly matter. Holding hands. A smile at each other. A note left behind for her to read. A lunch being made for him. Drinking morning coffee. Going for ice cream. Taking a walk. Cooking together. Doing nothing at all.

Those are the things that mean the most. Those are the things that hold each other together when everything feels like complete chaos.

Losing Control

She's fallin' in love now
Losin' control now
Fightin' the truth
Tryin' to hide
But I think it's alright girl
Yeah, I think it's alright girl

She's falling but she doesn't think he'll catch her
Cause her last relationship was a disaster
Accusations everyday she didn't know why
All her calls would be ignored he's on his own time
Shoulda' ended it before it started
All she ever got was broken hearted
He was cheating on her tryna' flip it
Back on her like a victim
Now she's all alone and starting over
Now she's got baggage on her shoulder
But the new guy really loves her
She loves him but she doesn't trust herself anymore


She's fallin' in love now
Losin' control now
Fightin' the truth
Tryin' to hide
But I think it's alright girl
Yeah, I think it's alright girl

Despite her past she can't help the attraction
He tells her that he's nothing like the last one
He redefines in every way what love is
She fell for him and hasn't gotten' up since
Every now and then she goes off though
Beating on his chest like a bongo
He understands she's coming from a hurt place
Answers all the questions on her survey
Doesn't get jealous, doesn't break trust
Doesn't call a hoe after hang ups
Gives her everything she ever wanted
And even though she still feels haunted


She's fallin' in love now
Losin' control now
Fightin' the truth
Tryin' to hide
But I think it's alright girl
Yeah, I think it's alright girl

                                                                                                                                 Russ Vitale

It finally hit her like a ton of bricks. Shes been putting herself second best for way to long. Its time to stop and get a grip out of life. Its time to smile. Your beautiful kind loving and have such a big heart. I feel like I've lost connection with the people i once felt really close to. Ive tried to reach out. Over and over again. Sometimes you just got to stop and pull away. You might be alone. But that is ok. Learn to love yourself and not be afraid. You've been stuck in a shell for way to long. Even if this means not being there for others the way you've always been. Its time to walk away from toxic relationships or people that take to much room in your head. Move the fuck on.

When enough is enough.

Slap in the face

Its funny when a new boyfriend does everything the ex didn't do. Feels AMAZING for a women. I wonder if the ex realizes when he fucked up? lOL

You think he wants you.

You think he doesnt.

He leaves her with mixed feelings.

He never gives her a Yes or a No.

Leaves her wondering.

Sometimes leaves her hanging.

Gives minutes. Not hours.

He is affectionate but its been months,

 which are now a sweet memory.

He wants you.

He makes time for you. 

He tells you he thinks of you.

He gives you that one on one attention.

Hes loves to talk about anything.

He gives loving hugs.

Thats enough to make him smile.

And just wants her around....

Laying here listening to Drake.. Lil Wayne...call me ghetto gansta mama haa
 i dont give a Fk.. Thats my chill vibe..i just want to chill and drink and be with you....haa THIS jam makes me "feelin some type of way."

...as youve put it ...missn You..

 Baby wont you come my wayyyy
 cause baby your the baddest..

baby wont you come my wayyyy

lovn the jam.

Secret life of a single hard working mom

Havnt blogged in forever it seems like. So much has happened in just weeks. The top of the year started off a bumb...alone on New Years Eve. Cheers to the single life! But believe me next year will all change. This momma is on the hunt for her next love. Shall i say lover? lOL wishful dreamful thinking hmmmm let me enjoy my thoughts for a minute.....OK times up haha Anyhow enough of that. Found a new job and am so happy im on the right track. I started a new job and low and behold BAM! I catch Bronchitis with a patch of Pneumonia on my left Lobe WONDERFUL! Fortunateley i did not loose my job! PHEWWWW!!! So lucky for that. Got my daughter all registered for high school next year CHECK life is on track..my youngest is doing very well in school so proud of the both of them. They make me so proud. And they can never ever say there mom was never there for them. Threw sickness and the whole 99 ive been there. There the loves of my life. Another thing has happend..ive been helping a good friend of mine help get some business going. Hes asked me to find numbers for him for shows. If i blurt what kind of show youd be shocked but its for a ladies night. Which would be completely incredible. Im his right hand it feels like. He calls and throws ideas and i give him my ideas on what women or men like and he runs with it. I did my part and got the number for the Magic Mike men from Las Vegas and they returned his call. He thanked me for all the help and support ive been giving him. I was amazed i found the right number for it is very difficult to get threw to some of these Vegas promoters. All i know is if this all plays out the way we been talking and he make things happen it will be an amazing feeling to be part of something so big. I will have part in the creating of this event and it feels amazing. And a feeling of accomplishment. Anyways enough about that  haa

The life of me in January 2017

You should of opened your eyes.

 I was crazy for you.