A bit of advice

You can't start the next chapter of your life if you keep Re-Reading the last one

As simple as that.

How to love

How to love.


How does one let go of the pain from the past & love again? I'm so afraid of being hurt all over. But, in the back of my mind I tell myself just do it. Take the chance. Live a little & see if you can be happy once again.

You take your past love as a experience & take the good out of it & never make the same mistakes. Someone else can bring much more happiness and life out of you than you never imagined.

You will never know unless you let your guard down and take the chance :)

Home Sweet Home

What Home means to me...

A Place to walk into and kick off your shoes and run my toes in between my carpet. You know that feels good, hahaha

A place that i can go to, to have the biggest hugs ever!

A place to relax

Home is a place to make a meal & sit down and talk about your day

A place to be silly & make a big tent in the living room & camp out in it

Make your living room into a movie theater one night

A place to take the longest shower & bathy =)

Peace & quiet

HOME IS A HOME SO ENJOY IT! We grow old and we die, sad, but true. Or our children grow up and move, get married, or go off to college. So enjoy every minute of what you have and who you have for as long as you have it. I want everyone who steps foot into my door to fill relaxed and loved.

 Mi Casa Es Su Casa

Live & let learn

The past month ive been focusing on me. It feels really good. I feel at peace right now. I even love myself  a little more then i did a month ago. I feel blessed with whom i have in my life. I have shut out the people who dont matter. I have let go of people that have brought me down. And I only will meet half way to the ones that will give back. Im tired of people who take, take, take. I came accross a quote this morning....

"The older you get, the more you realize some people should be around your entire life & others should just make an appearance. "

That quote has stuck in my head all morning, is it crazy? But true. There are some that take such a huge effect on your life and you will never let go. But theres some who at one time made you smile, but are very much not deserving of your time and effort anymore because they are very selfish. Im done with selfish people. And people that wont go that extra mile that deserve it.

HELLO to the next Chapter of my life!

There comes a point in your life when you say  I JUST DONT GIVE A FUCK Let go and live life to the fullest. No regrets just live life and experience everything you didnt when you didnt have the chance before. You think you wont? Well, i guarantee at some point in your life, you will. I didnt think i would, i reached that point and said those very words and had the time of my life. Until something snaps you back into reality. One heart wrenching moment when you realize, what the fuck am i doing?  Have i lost control of myself? And am i living a life that is going slowly in a downward spiral? Am i really all alone in this big big world? And suddenly i felt like everything was caving in. I have loved ones that need me and to be there for them. I need to gain much more respect for myself and LOVE ME. I lost myself for a moment but now i am focusing on who i am and what i want. I am riding solo these days but thankful for who i have in my life. And i especially need to be head strong for my girls. They are my life. I need to be mentally there for them. I want them to see me as a strong, loving, respectful, comforting person, mother, someone who they can always come to and talk to with open arms. I realize i can live life to the fullest but can do and see it on a different level. A respectable level. I was stuffing pain & heartache. Trying to gain some kind of love and kindness from the outside world. But all and all there is no love out there. None at all. It is very cold and selfish. You reach that point when you say IM DONE Its a close to one chapter and the beginning of the next with a whole new outlook.

The day came & went and no reports of anything happening due to what that man calls the ...Rapture. Just proves that god only knows the day and the time that Armageddon will start. No man does. Enjoy your day peoples :) As for me i can smell my brewed coffee and am gonna enjoy it while sitting in my bed while feeling the cool breeze come threw my window.

Enjoy!

In the news today

 

The Associated Press The sun sets over the horizon near Changchun in northeastern China's Jilin province. Across the globe, followers of a California preacher's long-publicized message that Judgment Day would arrive Saturday turned to the Bible, the book they believe predicts Earth's destruction on May 21.

OAKLAND, Calif. -- Some shut themselves inside to pray for mercy as they waited for the world's end. 

Others met for tearful last lunches with their children, and prepared to leave behind homes and pets as they were swept up to heaven. 

And across the globe, followers of a California preacher's long-publicized message that Judgment Day would arrive Saturday turned to the Bible, the book they believe predicts the beginning of Earth's destruction on May 21. 

The doomsday message has been sent far and wide via broadcasts and web sites by Harold Camping, an 89-year-old retired civil engineer who has built a multi-million-dollar nonprofit ministry based on his apocalyptic prediction. 

After spending months traveling the country to put up Judgment Day billboards and hand out Bible tracts, Camping follower Michael Garcia planned to spend Friday evening with his family at home in Alameda, near the Christian media empire's Oakland headquarters. 

They believe it will likely start as it becomes 6 p.m. in the world's various time zones. 

"We know the end will begin in New Zealand and will follow the sun and roll on from there," said Garcia, a 39-year-old father of six. "That's why God raised up all the technology and the satellites so everyone can see it happen at the same time." 

The Internet was alive with reaction in the hours past 6 p.m. Saturday in New Zealand. 

"Harold Camping's 21st May Doomsday prediction fails; No earthquake in New Zealand," read one posting on Twitter. 

"If this whole end-of-the-world thingy is still going on ... it's already past 6.00 in New Zealand and the world hasn't ended," said another. 

Camping's radio stations, TV channels, satellite broadcasts and website are controlled from a humble building on the road to the Oakland International Airport, sandwiched between an auto shop and a palm reader. Family Radio International's message has been broadcast in 61 languages. 

Camping, however, will be awaiting Jesus Christ's return for the second time. He said his earlier apocalyptic prediction in 1994 didn't come true because of a mathematical error. 

"I'm not embarrassed about it. It was just the fact that it was premature," he told The Associated Press last month. But this time, he said, "there is...no possibility that it will not happen." 

Skeptics are planning Rapture-themed parties to celebrate what hosts expect will be the failure of the world to come to an end. 

Bars and restaurants from Melbourne, Australia to the Florida Keys advertised bashes. 

In Oakland, atheists planned a gathering at a local Masonic temple to include group discussions on "The Great Success of Past Apocalypses," followed by dinner and music. 

Camping and his followers believe the beginning of the end will come on May 21, exactly 7,000 years since the flood in the biblical story of Noah's Ark. 

Some 200 million people will be saved, Camping preaches, and those left behind will die in earthquakes, plagues, and other calamities until Earth is consumed by a fireball on October 21. 

In the Philippines, a big billboard of Family Radio ministry in Manila warned of Judgment Day. Earlier this month, group members there distributed leaflets to motorists and carried placards warning of the end of the world. 

Christian leaders from across the spectrum have widely dismissed the prophecy, but one local church is concerned that Camping's followers could slip into a deep depression come Sunday. 

Pastor Jacob Denys of Milpitas-based Calvary Bible Church plans to wait outside the nonprofit's headquarters on Saturday afternoon, hoping to counsel believers who may be disillusioned if the Rapture does not occur. 

"The cold, hard reality is going to hit them that they did this, and it was false and they basically emptied out everything to follow a false teacher," he said. "We're not all about doom and gloom. Our message is a message of salvation and of hope." 

On Friday afternoon, a small group of eccentrics, gawkers and media opportunists convened outside Family Radio's closed office building. A sign posted on the front door said "SORRY WE MISSED YOU!" 

As May 21 drew nearer, followers say donations grew, allowing Family Radio to spend millions of dollars on more than 5,000 billboards and 20 RVs plastered with the doomsday message. In 2009, the nonprofit reported in IRS filings that it received $18.3 million in donations, and had assets of more than $104 million, including $34 million in stocks or other publicly traded securities. 

Marie Exley, who helped put up apocalypse-themed billboards in Israel, Jordan, Lebanon and Iraq, said the money helped the nonprofit save as many souls as possible. She said she and her husband, mother and brother planned to stay glued to the television Friday night in Bozeman, Montana for news of an earthquake in New Zealand. 

Camping recommended this week that followers surround themselves by their loved ones and not meet publicly, Exley said. 

"It's an emotional time and we're kind of nervous and scared about how things will pan out as to who will be here and who will go to heaven," she said. "I'll probably be scared in the fog of it, and crying, because we don't know who is saved and who is not." 

Some people wanted to make sure their pets receive good treatment, no matter what happens. 

Sharon Moss, who founded AfterTheRapturePetCare.com to provide post-apocalypse animal care, said a new wave of customers has paid $10 to sign up in the last few weeks. 

"A lot of people have said you should be out there saving souls not saving pets but my heart says 'why can't you do both?'" said Moss, who identifies herself as Protestant.

– The Associated Press

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