If you value

your time, 

don't spend 

it selling 

yourself to 

someone

like "proving

your worth"

 Horacio Jones

The taboo of depression.

I took a class once on Mental Health and my instructor showed us this Ted Talks video on You Tube of Bjork The taboo of depression. The subject matter has to do with suicide. A very sensitive subject. I have turned to this video so many times because she is an example of inner strength. Depression is a illness not a choice. Its nothing to be ashamed of.  Its ok to talk about your feelings and never hide them. Seek help. Its ok to take the time to fix not only our physical well being but lets take the time to fix our souls. 

Little hope with no meaning at all

He was someone who wanted to give her everything.

But she did him wrong. The end.

Better not Bitter

And then all of a sudden 

She changed.

She came back a completely different person

With a new mindset, a new outlook,

A new soul

The girl that once cared way to much

About everyone and everything

No longer cared at all

Players only love you when they're playing

Dreams

Now here you go again

You say you want your freedom

Well, who am i to keep you down?

It's only right that you should

Play the way you feel it

But listen closely to the sound of your lonliness

Like a heartbeat drives you mad

In the stillness of remembering what you had

And what you lost....

And what you had...

And what you lost

Thunder only happens when it's raining

Players only love you when they're playing

Say...women...they will come and they will go

When the rain washes you clean...you'll know, you'll know

Now here i go again, I see the crystal visions

I keep my visions to myself, 

Its only me

Who wants to wrap you around your dreams and...

Have you any dreams you'd like to sell?

Dreams of lonliness...

Like a heartbeat ...drives you mad...

In the stillness of remembering what you had...

And what you lost...

And what you had...

And what you lost

                                                                                                         Fleetwood Mac

Great minds think alike

Here i am sitting. Reflecting. Its funny how one decision made, has ultimatley layed the ground work and landed me right where i am now. I think back and ask myself why didn't i move to Fresno with my pops? Why didnt i just go?? I had 4 goals of interest. One, to become a Cosmetologist, a Lawyer,  a Psychologist or a Nutritionist. I then made the decision to become a hairdresser because it was the fastest way to get a job. Get on my own.  So much ran threw my mind at 17. And i really didn't have much time cause my parents decided to divorce sell the house and move into different towns. Go seperate ways. I fill like i had no choice but to hustle. I battled with the thoughts of all the schooling requiring so much time and energy. Now i wish that if i could go back i would take that leap and would have moved forward to become a psychologist and take that time out..... OHHHH Fucking well!..... It seems like since then my whole life has been somewhat of a struggle due to making that one decision.  Deep down i know i would of been a damn good psychologist if i would of pushed myself.

There was someone who i looked up to back then that has left a mark on me..Mr. Mark Harmon. He was my Professor of Psychology at Reedley College. Ill never forget him.  AND YES i had a major crush on this man. He was smart. Handsome. And would take his time out to discuss anything and everything with you. We had a party once and he was invited. Heck ya thoughts of Mr. Mark Harmon coming over to chill out with us.. Sooo.... He came.  And ate dinner. And drank with us. It was awesome. I was just a girl who sat in his class and wanted to pick at his brain and thought this was the coolest thing ever to spend time with this man. All of us hung out on the back patio of a friends house. Our topic of conversation????? Sexuality. Homosexuality, and the meaning of being a gay or lesbian. What being a lipstick lesbian ment.  This man wasn't married.  And i sense he went both ways. It didn't even matter. This man captured thoughts inside me i never had in my life.

Astronaut Jones

One of my all time most favorite skits on Saturday Night Live!!!  The night i saw this i could not stop 

laughing.... i nearly peed my pants!! Tracy Morgan is one of the best comedians in my book.

Self Esteem Tips

• Read to build your brain 
• Exercise to build your body
• Mediate/Pray to build spirituality
• Make new friends-build social skills
• Eat Healthy
• Experience something new every day 
• Dont pity yourself
• Never stop looking for a challenge

The truth is

              

       you 

          never 

                deserved 

                      

                           me

The day we saw the President of the United States of America

On June. 17th, 2016 President Obama and his family arrived into the City of Atwater Ca. at Castle Air Force Base. That is where we saw Air Force 1 Land. It was a moment in history to witness the president and his family. They were planning a vacation stay for fathers day weekend at Yosemite National Park. I couldn't miss this opportunity for my family to observe this. Something they would never forget. When Air Force 1 Landed everyone observing was completely silent. Videoing and taking pictures. It was a moment to soak in. The look on my girls face was priceless. My niece was on top of my daughters shoulders and our youngest ones were working there way towards the fence to look threw. It was amazing to see them so excited.

                                      

Down below is a picture of Air Force 1. that my daughter took. :) (Good job baby girl!) From here the president and Malia emerged from the plane followed by Michelle Obama and Sasha. The two daughters headed quickly to Marine One helicopter while POTUS and FLOTUS chatted on the tarmac for a few minutes with greeters, US Representative Jim Costa, Chairwoman Claudia Gonzales, Chuckchansi tribe, Supervisor Hub Walsh, Merced County. To see the plane in person was amazing because the night before, me and my family googled the sections of the aircraft. Did you know the presidents suite includes sleeping quarters, shower with double sinks, and a gym? Pretty cool huh?1 A dining room that can supply 2000 meals. Medical facilities on board including blood supplies. Staff/secretarial quarters with 85 telephones and 19 TVs plus faxes. Flares that can be used to confuse enemy missiles. Those are just a few features of the plane. Pretty AMAZING!

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Air Force 1

My daughter took this picture. I'm very proud of her photography skills.

                                                            Air Force 1

This is me and my sister right after we saw Mr. Obama and his family. All Smiles!!! We were so happy to 

have experienced this and especially for our children. They will always remember there mommas made this happen for them! This will be in there history books later on... GREAT moment indeed! FYI... 

If your able to zoom in to this picture Air Force 1 is right behind that fence. We were really close!

Your mind is a powerful thing

Your subconscious is sending you powerful messages today, yet they may stem from old fears rather than from current events. Ironically, the more time you put into analyzing your memories, the more intense your feelings become. There's nothing to be gained by feeding your negative fantasies; instead of worrying about something that's well in your past, focus all your attention on what's happening now.