Classic hahaa

Chistmas 2017

Just me and my corrina on this Christmas Eve. Its truly a silent night. My poor girl even fell asleep. Shes been battling a fever since early morning. We've been a couple of couch potatoes and are now on our 8th movie. I wonder what my family is doing. They are most likely playing a few games, sipping on some fine wine, and opening a few gifts. Laughing, smiling, maby even getting tipsy. 

2 Years ago we celebrated Christmas at my aunt valeries just days after the death of my father. I got so drunk that night. I swore i would never get that drunk ever again in my life. I wished and hoped for my dad and even thought of near death of myself out of pure selfishness. I was drunk and in and out of sleep. I was sick in the head and missed my dad. My mother and uncle took care of me. My mom was pissed at me for getting so drunk. I promised i would never get like that again. And i never have. I pace myself. I dont ever go over board like that one night. 

 I poured myself a glass of Rossi this past friday after work. And cheered to the weekend. Im so ever greatful for this 3 day weekend. I needed it. The commute to work has been getting to me. And the work overload on my plate has been getting to me also. Anyways, cheers to the weekend. Saturday i caught up on sleep and watched movies with corrina. My friend stopped by and spent a few hours with me. Sipped on wine and chatted some. I gave him his christmas present. He had that smile on his face that gets me every time. 

Today, i got up and started baking oatmeal cookies and made rice krispy treats for moms. Im sure everyone enjoyed them tonight. Mom sent me a picture of the kids eating one before dinner hahaa. Im near half threw my bottle of Rossi so yummy. Pacing myself. Corrina and i ordered mountain mikes for dinner. Corrina ate just a little bit for she is still not feeling well. She passed on the chicken broth i made her and took a slice of pizza. I dont blame her. 

I'm really missing him and my family tonight. I wish we can all be under the same roof right about now. I wonder what they are all doing at this very moment.

Love is spending the rest of your life with someone you want to kill and not doing it because you'd miss them.

xox

To the person who drives me out of my fucking mind...

You drive me wild. Insane.

Your always on my mind.

It never gets old.

Me & You.

I hate you.

I fucking love your mind.

Your eyes. Your skin make me putty.

You get my insanity.

I love your thoughts. 

It never gets old.

I hate you.

I fucking love you. 

Dont ever stop loving.

Forever yours....kisses.

Hooked

When the little things are what truly matter. Holding hands. A smile at each other. A note left behind for her to read. A lunch being made for him. Drinking morning coffee. Going for ice cream. Taking a walk. Cooking together. Doing nothing at all.

Those are the things that mean the most. Those are the things that hold each other together when everything feels like complete chaos.

Losing Control

She's fallin' in love now
Losin' control now
Fightin' the truth
Tryin' to hide
But I think it's alright girl
Yeah, I think it's alright girl

She's falling but she doesn't think he'll catch her
Cause her last relationship was a disaster
Accusations everyday she didn't know why
All her calls would be ignored he's on his own time
Shoulda' ended it before it started
All she ever got was broken hearted
He was cheating on her tryna' flip it
Back on her like a victim
Now she's all alone and starting over
Now she's got baggage on her shoulder
But the new guy really loves her
She loves him but she doesn't trust herself anymore


She's fallin' in love now
Losin' control now
Fightin' the truth
Tryin' to hide
But I think it's alright girl
Yeah, I think it's alright girl

Despite her past she can't help the attraction
He tells her that he's nothing like the last one
He redefines in every way what love is
She fell for him and hasn't gotten' up since
Every now and then she goes off though
Beating on his chest like a bongo
He understands she's coming from a hurt place
Answers all the questions on her survey
Doesn't get jealous, doesn't break trust
Doesn't call a hoe after hang ups
Gives her everything she ever wanted
And even though she still feels haunted


She's fallin' in love now
Losin' control now
Fightin' the truth
Tryin' to hide
But I think it's alright girl
Yeah, I think it's alright girl

                                                                                                                                 Russ Vitale