Do you ever feel so overwhelmed it makes you sick inside? Thats called stress. Then a sudden panic & a full blown anxiety attack.So strong you cannot even breathe. So you stay focused on the moment, on the moment your telling yourself to breathe and everything will be ok. So you take your deep breathe and you run threw your mind all the things your thankful for. Your kids, your family, your health, your alive and your breathing. Everything will be ok. Just breathe...

I think back to last year. So much has changed since then. How am i so different now, compared to then? Well for one, im not partying as much. To be honest and real i drank almost everyday at home. Im talking about 2-3 glasses of wine and then partying with friends 3 days out of the week. It started to cool down for a bit towards the end of the year from 3-2 days then to once a week to every 2 weeks id go out on the weekend. ( That was last year) Dont judge me. I felt as if my life was free, a taste of single hood. Something i hadnt had for a long time. My life was a bit out of control for a bit but it reached its breaking point. When a friend left me at the bar. All alone, i was afraid and intoxicated. And all i had was my phone and the few phone calls i made for help at 1am This came to be a eye opener as to who my real friends are and what the Fuck am i doing to my life? My little alchohol addiction needs to slow down. And face whatever i was dealing with instead of stuffing it.

Since then, ive set goals for myself. This year is a new beginning. A new start. I ask myself was that such a wasted year? I tell myself no it wasnt. It was an experiance that made me stronger. I lived it and made it threw. And thankful for my health. My family & the handful of friends that made it over to this year.
Dont get me wrong. I love to party!!! If anyone down to party call me and im there. I still go out and see all my party friends But now i do it on occasion. :)

Staying focused on what needs to get done is most important to me. Family, Job, College education, Excercise & some traveling.

So when you start to feel that anxiety, just remember all that your thankful for. What youve made it threw to get where you are now. Remember the goals you have set for yourself and your family. Breathe, and stay focused because everything will be ok.